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突然觉得人生好无趣去了。。。

嗨~~~

就觉得自己想太多了。。。

觉得。。。

我的全部事情都不顺利的。。。

家庭，爸爸妈妈都不理解也不去了解事情。。。

也更不像其他人的家庭一样，开开心心的。。。

我每次看到朋友的家人跟他们沟通时，都很开心。。。

真的是一家人的感觉。。。

但是自己的家就不一样咯。。。好羡慕。。。

友情，虽然说蛮多朋友的。。。

但是朋友也有自己的生活，自己的事情要做。。。

也不能说每次都在自己的身边。。。

有时候，需要朋友时，也不能随便打扰到他们啦。。。

爱情，本来以为会很幸福的。。。

但是就失败了。。。

第一次这样是正常的啦。。。

都怪自己差了一点，没办法去面对。。。

学业，如果自己厉害读书就好咯。。。

什么科都不厉害，都不像朋友那样，有的数学就很厉害，有的就容易记东西。。。

我什么都不会。。。

也没有什么特别好的。。。

以后都不知道找不找到工作。。。

我真的好没用哦。。。

觉得自己活在这世界上好浪费。。。

每次都想很多，幻想很多。。。

真的怕会傻去。。。

以前的我，都很乱，很多话讲。。。

现在，我觉得我比较喜欢一个人。。。每次在房间。。。都不想跟别人讲话。。。

好像真的变了那样。。。

讲话是有，但是都是跟自己讲话。。。

还是想跟朋友讲的。。。但是都没人陪我讲心事啦。。。

所以有什么事，就跟电脑说咯。。。

那我的心才会舒服点。。。

但是，我还是觉得我最想跟他讲话了。。。

只是，真的没机会了。。。

我们的话题，有ruler就可以量完了。。。

他本人，没心要跟我讲话。。。是没办法勉强的。。。

对他来说，我是一个很烦的人。。。

所以，每次我都会不去讲话。。。

忍着不想烦到他。。。以为那样他就会跟我讲话。。。

但是原来，如果我不跟他说话，他就可以永远都不理我了。。。

他能做到。。。真的能的。。。

他现在最珍惜的是他现在的朋友。。。友情。。。

他也变得越来越多话讲了。。。整个人变开朗了。。。

而我就觉得自己变得越来越自闭了。。。

好想变回以前开心的样子。。。没有烦恼。。。没有压力。。。没有爱情。。。的日子。。。

Suck Holidays!!!

Ah!!!!!

I hate holidays la...

T.T

so sad nia...

No activity at all!!!

No internet summore...

I gonna DIE soon~~~

信任

两个人如果要一生一世的在一起的话，最重要的是信任。。。

要去相信对方，也要被对方相信。。。

这样的话，才能开开心心的在一起嘛。。。

如果对方开始说骗话了，那就惨了。。。

因为有第一次，就会有第二次。。。

慢慢的。。。久了。。。这些骗话就会变成一个习惯。。。

讲话的时候，里面也会不小心的加了些骗话进去。。。

说骗话的人就觉得无所谓吧。。。

因为他们都会觉得被骗的人应该不会知道真相。。。

但是他们没想到。。。如果被骗的那个人知道了会是怎样。。。

被骗的感觉很难受。。。

发现自己被骗了会更难过。。。

以前第一次被最相信的人骗时，感觉真难受啊。。。

但是以为只有一次而已。。。

没想到。。。就像virus那样。。。会越来越严重。。。

慢慢的不想去相信那个人了。。。

但是。。。love is blind。。。

一次又一次的去相信。。。

但是也一次又一次的失望了。。。

到现在，他还是很喜欢骗我。。。

虽然是小小的事而已。。。

真搞不懂啊。。。

有时候小事也会变大事啊。。。

如果真的相爱的话，就不会想去伤害另一半吧。。。

The Boom Story...

Erm...

Im down again...

Becuz I had love a BOOM...

Every minute every second...It might explode...

But this BOOM had its own capability, that is after it explode itself, it will recover and try to explode again...as many times as its wants...

Explode as many times as its wan but only to me...

Mayb I like a "fire" to tat BOOM...

When a fire go near to a BOOM, it will react n explode...

Then...fire will become polluted air... and gone after a few second...

But the BOOM still there and live happy again ever...

Becuz the BOOM has its own new fren...

They just like a secondary school relation frenship...

All still like child...

I also duno wat Im saying now...

I just knw tat... I hate the feeling of loving him...

As its already prove by the story tat I just tell up page...

Fire wont hav a good relation with a BOOM...

Many times already that I told myself to forget bout the past...

Yesterday, I just told myself not to love him anymore...

But...Human being is born to hav feeling...

Once the feeling is there, is hard to take it away...

Now, he didnt wan to say anything bout our relation...

Mayb he already treat me as a fren...

If there is magic lamp in the world...

I wan to wish... that I never meet him...

...

Im deep down now...

Duno why...

Feeling like Im away from the earth...

My dinner~

Tonite, I had "cintan mee" as my dinner...

Haiz...

This is becuz he wanted to cooked mee...

Therefore, we went out to buy cintan mee package...

I felt so weird...

Actually he wan to eat mee becuz he lazy wan to go out eat or buy...

But... we actually went out to buy at the place near the food stall...

Then why dun we just buy food eat?=.=lll

Haha...

Nvm la...

Also long time no eat mee le...

Then he cooked lo...

Not bad la...

Erm...The feeling of 5% happiness lo...

Then tis is the pic tat I captured when I was locked outside the hostel few days ago...

So sad being locked outside...forgot take keys...T.T

But the sky looked so nice~

I wonder if I can see a UFO fly through...>.<

我是个大笨蛋！

今天，我发现到我是个大笨蛋。

嗨~

醒来了之后就去冲凉咯。。。

然后就很饿。。。

看到他也醒了就以为可以跟他去吃还是打包的。。。

但是。。。

跟他说了，他就说他不饿。。。

我就等他咯。。。

等了几个小时候。。。

他还是说不饿。。。

那我呢。。。

我真的很笨！！！

为什么我要依靠他？

我现在对他来说，什么都不是了。。。

我真的好笨啊！！！

都知道他不喜欢我了，当然我的事一点也不管他的事啦。。。

我饿我的事啦。。。

现在才发觉到。。。

我想我吃杯面不是更好吗。。。

不用等到酱辛苦。。。

现在醒过来了。。。

以后就别那么傻了。。。

不明白啊~

嗨~~~

我跟他都开始讲话几天了。。。

好过之前多多了啦。。。

但是。。。我不知道我们现在的关系是什么。。。

我们是"朋友"还是"情侣"。。。？

好乱~~~

有时候觉得当他是朋友会比较好受。。。

但是有时不知不觉，我会当他是男朋友。。。然后在意的东西也会比较多。。。也很容易被他的几句话影响到。。。

每次都要控制自己的心情。。。

好辛苦啊。。。(T.T)

不知道该怎么办好~~~

(>,<)

So Sienz...

Exam weeks already started...

2 subjects had already past...left 3 super hard subjects...

Tat are Mathematic, Programming and Information Technology...

Everyone knw tat my math is very suck...

Now cham lo... T.T

Haiz...

Really hope to finish all tests faster...

Erm...

Nowadays me are alone...

Its already become a habits for me...

Becuz I think I have to learn to let go...

So...now Im practising...

I still remember last time I went to a cafe tat was called 83 celcius,then my mother asked me," Why u wan go there alone? Alone syiok meh? Alone looks like sumthing wrong de..." said my mother...

I did not say anything...but in my mind,I think being alone is not a weird thing to me anymore...

I admit tat at the 1st time Im being alone and lonely, I suffer a lot...

Being alone, I always think many stupid things...and at last drag myself into painful world...

Haiz...

"Times really can prove everything..."

Now, I think Im alright already...

Being alone, I hav more privacy...>.<

But...2 more ppl had become my roommate already!!!

Haiz...I duno them, they duno me...

Hard to communicate also...

When Im in room, "SILENT WORLD"~

They look like "book worm" to me...haha

But I will try my best to be frens with them...cuz I dun hav much "girl" frens...>.<

Is not my problem la...

I also wish tat I can have many many girl frens to hang out with...

Becuz Im studying in IT...Haiz... all boys...(宅男)

I study tat becuz I likes computer stuff...

But last year, I realise tat I am studying in wrong course!!!

I wanted to study about computer hardware n others, but wat Im studying now is designing,coding...all software stuff...

Sad de me...T.T

Nvm already...cant change...mayb I will find my real course when I finish my diploma and go to UTAR...haha

But still long journey...

Already being more than 1 week, I didnt see him...

Miss him? No... I dun wan to think bout tat...

Miss him will drag me to the hell...

Mayb this is the best way for me to forget him...

My fren teach me...hehe...>.<

Thx to Ying n Yen...U two giv me a lot of advises and opinion...

But all also must depend on myself...

I wan make myself tough...I dun wan become cry baby anymore...

So waste my tears nia...+.+

But now just the starting...I still duno if I can do it or not...

I really scare to be hurt again...I really scare to see him...

When I c him, all memorys bump out...

Is hard to forget my love to him when I hav to see him everyday...

Becuz living in the same hostel...Haiz...

But when sem break...Best thing is can 逃避 him, bad thing is I scare I will miss him...

What I suppose to do...?

I got think that I should put more effort on:

# Study (60%)

# Playing games (20%)

# Beautician (10%)

# Live in happy way (10%)

But I ned to do all things by myself...

Kampate!!!