My boring days...

Last Wednesday, Im back to BM with my mother...

The reason Im back bcuz..I cant stand to live at there...

Im truly alone...

He hurt me so much...

Not only didn care me...Lie me...

If I continue at there, I will commit suiside...

I still hav three days class at there...

But I lie my mother so tat I can back...

Then, I spend my 2 days at BM...

At first, I thought if I be at home, I can feel the family love...

But...same thing happen...

Im alone too at there...

Mother go work, father go out...

Leaving me alone in tat kampung house...

No fren...Phone no battery...

Nowadays, raining everyday...

At the time Im alone at home,raining day...

Im so boring until I take a chair to sit in front of the door, and watch the rain fall down...

Is kind of romantic...if can watch it with sumone beloved...

But for me tat is alone...Is sum kind of painful feeling...

Then,when I back Kulim...

Haiz...I cant find my fren come out too...

They will be sitting for their important exam soon...

So do I actually...But I cant concentrate to study...

Too many things happen suddenly...

Too many times tears had drop away...

I wish I can smile...

Smile of the happiness...Had gone...

Now just left Mr.Lonely with me...

Then, I had success to complete tat magic cube for 1 side de lo...

Im happy tat I can done it...

I thought tat wan to show him...

Then he can continue teach me the second method...

But...everthing had changed...he wont teach me anymore...

So,I just stop where he teach me...

Sometimes, I wish tat I can hate him...

If I can hate him,I wont hurt so much...I wont care so much...

Independence day is coming soon...

I dun wan to celebrate it...

Becuz I dun wish to celebrate...

后悔吗。。。

我每次都在想。。。

到底我们来槟城读书是对还是错的。。。

我是不是带错了你来这里。。。

是。。。我知道。。。

你一定觉得，来了这里，你能认识到很多个新朋友。。。

学会了很多事。。。

我记得我问过你。。。

如果你没来槟城读书，那会变成怎样？

你说你就会像以前那样笨蛋，什么都不会。。。

那爱上我也是笨蛋的吗？

说真的。。。

你真的变了。。。

不只是你对我变了心。。。

你整个人也变了。。。

再也不是以前我认识的那个了。。。

我也很努力去接受现在的你。。。

但是。。。

没用了。。。你就是要这样冷冷淡淡的对我。。。

你知道吗？

我在你身上了解一样东西。。。

当你有了新了的，你就忘了旧的。。。

就像朋友那样。。。

你有了新的朋友。。。

旧的就没去联络。。。你每次都说是他们不找你。。。

但是你有没有真正去想过？

是你自己已经没心要去找他们的。。。

现在。。。轮到我了。。。

你也好像已经忘记了我的存在。。。

我觉得。。。

你以后。。。在马路上看到我。。。

应该不会认我了吧。。。

说真的。。。

以前，虽然说你是蛮乖乖样子的。。。

但是那时的泥。。。

我敢大声的说。。。

你是100% 好的男朋友。。。

我记得以前。。。

朋友都问过我，跟你在一起会不会怕还是担心你会找别的女生？

因为我们住的地方不一样又远。。。

那时，我很快的回答，不会的。。。

我不怕，因为我相信你。。。

现在。。。我已经没这个机会说了。。。

我知道。。。

你一定觉得。。。以前哪里好。。。

每次只在店帮忙。。。

什么都不会。。。

但是那时的你。。。

真得很好。。。

虽然我很想念。。。但是，变了就是变了。。。

没办法再回到以前。。。

我每次也抱着希望你会像回以前那样。。。

但是。。。

我现在醒了。。。

真的醒了。。。

有些东西真的没办法勉强了。。。

我也觉得。。。

我伤够了。。。

你一对我冷淡。。。

我就哭一天，难过一个星期。。。

但是。。。有用吗？

如果有用，我愿意哭整天。。。

你也臣经爱过我的。。。

你应该了解到那种痛苦吧？

被爱的人不理不睬。。。冷冷淡淡的。。。

以前的我都没这样对过你啦。。。

但是现在全部都中在我身上。。。

有时候，真的不知道要怎样哭好了。。。

I cant stand anymore...

I felt like Im falling down from a high hill...

and now... I cant stand up le...

My heart really pain...

I tried to be strong...but I cant...

When I saw his face expression toward me...

Is different now...

Really different...

I felt so hurt when I see him...

He wont wan to talk with me anymore...

Talk as a fren also dun hav...

I really upset...

I very dun understand wat he wan now...

I know tat he dun hav feeling to me already...

BUT...

Pls tell me...

I really feels very suffer...

He treats me like he duno me or hate me...

Is very cool...

Actually... I think I should face the reality already...

I already knw for a long time tat U dun love me anymore...

But... I dun wan to face it...

I too... scare to lost u...

But since...

Now U already decided to treat me in this kind of attitude...

I really cant stand it anymore...

Everyone hav a limit, so do I...

I already reach the limit...

I really can accept tat u dun love me anymore...

So...

Please...

I just ned a explanation...

U dun just kill me without telling me the reason...

U can just say it!!!!!

Just say tat U dun like me anymore!!!!!

Just say tat U wan to break up with me!!!

Then...

I can... really try my best to forget u...

Forget bout our memories...

Im back again...

I just back today...in Penang...

Becuz I when to Gurney with my mom...

I late for class...Therefore, I skip class...

Is ok to skip already...

Becuz tis week is study week...

When I step into my room...

Wa... Flood!!!

Last week I forgot to close the window...

So...Whole day raining...

My room was half flood lo...

Luckily mom here...She do all tat stuff...

I just sit there n see...

Haha...

But after I think of him...

I become upset again...

He is not here...althought his class suppose tat finish very early...

I think he went to his fren house..."Study"

Then, when I sign in my msn...

I saw his...

His personal msg was

"期待-->兴奋-->开心-->结束-->低落-->回忆......redbox"

At last...he only thinks bout his happy day with his fren...

On tat day he is happy...Same time...Im very upset...

回忆?

When I saw this words...I think of so many memories with him...

But...His memories... just his frens n himself appeared...

And me...

I disappeared long time already lo...

Really long time...

Msg...

Yesterday nite cant sleep...

Therefore...

I read all my phone msg...

I start to read msg from the past...

Erm...

So many sweet msg n memories b4...

Then... I saw a msg from a fren tat is a meaningful msg to me...

如果你不爱那个人了，

请放手，

好让别人有机会爱她，

如果你爱的人放弃了你，

请放开自己，

好让自己去爱别人，

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的，

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃，

人生中有许多种爱，

别让爱成为一种伤害。

I will remember this~

Deeply pain...

He just left me like tat without saying anything...

Didnt tell me go where or when he will be bak...

Just talk to his fren and go...

He looks really very happy to go out...

Talk non-stop to his fren...

After they left, I go out see...

He is driving his car go...

I thought he will be goin by his fren's car...

I really disappointed after I know tat...

I think he didn like me to follow his car to go out...

Then...

I duno why...

My heart very pain...

My tears start to drop...

Faster n faster...

Then I really cant stand it anymore...

I walk to my room and let it be...

I duno why tis time I can cry so loud...

Maybe its really hurt deep inside my heart...

After cried...I really felt better...

Better than I keep all that inside my bleeding heart...

He left me alone in hostel again...

Nvm... I really felt nvm le...

Already doesn't matter to be alone...

Lonely had become my fren now...

承诺

两个星期前，我无意中听到他说这个星期要跟朋友去唱K。。。

然后我就说他，为什么有时间跟朋友出去但是没有时间跟我出呢？

我就乱到他答应我说这个星期也会陪我去看戏。。。

我真的很期待。。。

一直等这个星期。。。

到了。。。我真得很开心。。。

脑里一直在想要看什么戏好。。。

本来以为想看自己想看得。。。但是还是觉得看他要看的戏会比较好。。。

但是。。。

到了这个星期。。。

他又再让我失望了。。。

原来他都好像忘了答应过我的事。。。

但是跟他的朋友出去的事就一个星期前说好了。。。

他们也已经很肯定会出去。。。

那就是明天。。。

那我呢？

他没想过要跟我几时出。。。

我每次问他的时。。。

他都说很忙。。。我帮他想了那一天他得空的， 他也说没空。。。

所以。。。到最后。。。

什么都没了。。。

我也以为今天他会很得空。。。

但是。。。也是一样的答案。。。

我本来还有另一个Plan的。。。

就是他跟朋友去唱k但是我就顺便坐他的车去找慧丽出来。。。

但是今天放学我问他，他就说他不想驾车去。。。

他还一直脸黑黑，就是暗示我不要再问他。。。

我突然觉得很伤。。。

为什么你不陪我了。。。我自己找朋友陪我也不能吗。。。

进房间哭了一下就睡着了。。。

醒来后。。。我就想清楚了。。。

如果我要出去是那么辛苦跟难的话。。。

那就不要勉强了。。。

我越来越明白。。。

“勉强没有幸福” 的意思了。。。

真的很辛苦。。。

全部东西我都能忍他。。。

但是我不能接受他答应我的事。。。做不到。。。

Spirited Away~

"Spirited Away"~~~

A japanese cartoon movie I had watch bout 4 or 5 years ago...

This is the 1st japanese cartoon tat touch my heart...^^

The story is really very interesting...

I still remember the story until now...

But I miss this movie very much...

So, I search for this movie to hav review for another time...

Finally, I found a "GOOD" website...

Full of anime movie...Nice~~~

Then I found this movie and had this movie buffering...

Then I ma watch lo...

Erm... So nice...

I really love this kind of story...^^

Hope there will be "Spirited Away 2"...

Hehe...

回忆。。。

刚刚在车上，我想了很多很多我们以前开心过的日子。。。

以前跟你去Genting还有Bukit Merah的事。。。

现在想起，才知道。。。原来以前你是有给过我那么多的幸福的。。。

以前真的有幸福过。。。

虽然现在都好像没了。。。

但是我不会怎样了。。。因为我想起以前，我就满足了。。。

我觉得现在的我，有时候会很贪心。。。

什么事都要求要好的。。。

每次都抱很大的希望在你身上。。。

但是到最后失望也是很大，很深的。。。

伤的也很深。。。

有时候觉得明明好像被你伤害了，但是我的心也好像已经麻痹了。。。

失去感觉。。。

还是我害怕我会伤心？

我真的不知道我在想什么。。。

我只知道。。。

我什么也不在乎了。。。全部也无所谓了。。。

只要你对我好就已经很满足了。。。

Be Independent...

I should be independent starting now...

I just realise that...depend on ppl will make myself useless...

Im sick now...then...I thought I can be care by him...

But at last...I gain nothing...

Just feeling sad...and disappointed...

My brain hav so many questions...

But... I cant get the ans...

I really wan to knw...

If he still...love me...

But why... Im sick...he didn care so much on me...

Still... playing laptop is more important...

Then...I ask for goin out to buy some bread...

He... rejected... OR some how call me to wait bcuz he wan to take a nap...

But...when he wake up...He looks like already forgotten me...

So, I just ate some biscuits and then medicine...

I will try my best to recover from sick...

Bcuz when Im sick... Im alone...

PS: I dun hav H1N1...just normal fever...

I think Im goin to gone soon~~~

Erm...

I think I really got a serius fever...

Yes, Im SICK le...

I hav fever, cough and sorethroat...All is H1N1 de symptoms...

I ate many times medicine le...(Panadol)

Then yesterday I ok le but still cough... I thought is nothing...

Then tis evening after class, I hav fever again...

Syok Syok fever, syok syok Ok...

I really scare lo...

Becuz now I cough very seriously...and sumtime hard to breath...

Haiz...then no ppl care me summore...Just mother got call came say must eat panadol...

He just go away from me...Instead of caring me...

Maybe he scare I will spread to him ba...

Now he say he got a bit fever... Then... Now I quarantine myself in room lo...

We actually wanted to go to the Prom Nite de...

But now he say he tired, Im sick... Then didn go le lo...

Such a waste... I bought 2 tickets for RM8...waste...

Now doin nothing...Just ate Panadol...but didn eat dinner yet...

For the past time, if I cough a bit also, he will buy a box of"Strepsils" for me...

Now... I buy myself...

He told me b4 tat he dun like me to depend on him so much...

He asked me to be independent...

Haiz...

Frens...

If sumting really happen to me...

Please forgive me for everything...

I now think like wan do a "wasiat" lo...

Just joking la...

Yesterday nite, I ask him a question...

"如果我中了H1N1，你会怎样？"

Then he simply and faster ans me...

"我会被隔离咯!"

I .... totally.... speechless....

Piggy Chun Kit's Birthday^^..

Yesterday nite being called to 83 celcius to celebrate Chun Kit's birthday...

They had called many frens to go there...

Then Yen and me go fetch him while others prepare and wait at there...

They had go to the Secret Recipe to buy tat full of chocolate cake,name"CHOCOMATE", I think...

Then when he reach, we pretend just go there to eat and talk...

After all had finish ate, the cake came out lo...

He is so greedy cuz he wished for so long and many wishes I think...

Nice Cake~~~
My birthday also dun hav tis kind of cake ah...


After sing birthday song to him , all ppl busy capturing pic while he busy with cutting cake into pieces...No ppl care him... haha...

This is overall pic of us...>.<

Again, I wish "U" Happy Birthday...>.<

Will Pan Wei Bo...

On last Friday, we went to see Pan Wei Bo...
Hehe...
So many ppl o...

Say is many ppl la... But I still manage to take pic inside the crowd...

Hehe...So paiseh nia...>.<

Pan Wei Bo is so humour...Bcuz he can talk more then I thought...
Then his right hand was hurt and unable to sign his ablum for us (FANS)
But we can go up to stage to shake hand with him^^
Haha... I was so nervous on wat to talk to him...
Then I did not say anything to him, just shake hand n go...
He is so "WHITE"... haha...mean fair la...
And tall also...After watched his performance, we went back...
Time passes so fast...
Below is 1 video I had record when he was singing...
Hope readers enjoy but ned to wait because video ned buffering...

PR Fair....>.<

WalaoA....
Tis year PR Fair is so...FUN!
So many activity and entertainment...
Our foyer is full of ppl...

As U all can see,
Our foyer is "People mountain, people sea"...Hehe...^^




Haha...Firstly, there were a big LCD TV and PS2 free for playing and competition...
But the competition is "Street Fighter" ah...
I duno how to play, so I didn join it but most of my fren join...

Cuz winner may hav SONY product!
But I also had join a lucky draw contest la...^^

Then, second is the other activity tat is capture photo organised by NIKON!
Haiz.... Now I felt very very regret for not joining this...
ALL my fren join ah...then their photo is sooooooo NICE...T.T
Just ned to take tat camera and take pic by photographer...haiz...













Actually hav many more frens photo la... but cant show it all here... haha...
SAD de me...T.T

Lucky draw started after tat, haiz... no hope la...I not lucky de...
Then, I went to Admin to buy Will Pan Album, cuz he say he wan go c o...
Then I ma go buy lo...RM42...
I went bak to the foyer to see if anything goin on...
They were goin to annouce the 1st prize for the lucky draw de...
Then, I heard my name???
My frens all shout my name, and I still blur blur wat is goin on...
Haha...Then ma got this lo...

But I not so like this le...
I wan camera better..^^

hehe...







This is my Baka Junior, Joel.. haha...
still children ah, take belon...>.<

This is Kong Leong, my classmate, also taking part in taking NIKON photo...T.T


This is the Will Pan Wei Bo Album lo... And 2 tickets^^

Next year! I sure take part in capturing photo de la!!!>.<

Ahhhh....T.T

My laptop cant open ahhhhhh....
So sad now....
Duno wat happened to my laptop...
Now Im using fren laptop...
To express how much I felt about it...
Really sad ah...
My laptop is like my best fren...
Without it... I cant live any longer...
Im goin to die soon...
So sad nia...
Cant online play games or chat le...
Ned to take to computer shop to ask wat the HELL is goin on!
Then if really ned repair, I cham lo...
No $$$...Then later father knw will scold me...
Haiz...Now Im in DAMN no mood....
Not comfortable to use other ppl de laptop...
I likes mine better...
All thing update nice nice de...
But fren de laptop SUCK... wat also dun hav ...so noob...so out date de...
T.T
I wish my laptop to recover soon...
As fast as possible la...

Feeling Sad...

T.T

He came home very late...

But...now he had gone to his fren house...overnite...becuz of assignment...

I didn hav time to talk with him...

He very rush to bath n eat...then go...

I didn hav chance to talk more than 10 sentences...

Then, I giv him the cube...

I thought he will be happy to receive...

But...not...he just ask...how many do I hav to buy this...

...

Then he didn say anything more...

I also didn hav chance to show him the bag I bought for him...

Now...he is gone...

Just Im alone again...

I really thought I can see him smiling...

But...maybe is not the right time...

Many Things Happened ^^v

Too many things happened le..then I at home cant online write blog ah...

SO, I now will write out 4days memorys! Hehe...

On Friday, I go back Bukit Mertajam ah... my old old house, tat still live by my parents...

Then father go out, mother take bath,I alone in front of TV...

So boring, hav to wait 4 them to hav dinner ah...

Then I ma switch TV channels lo... Then I saw "SECRET" by Jay Chou de...

Haiz... Watch until cry ah...So touching...

But duno why think back, when I 1st time saw this movie,I felt nothing de...

Still ask many many bout wat actually is the movie about...

Now I knw lo...after I had so much experience on LOVE matter...

I understand more NOW... Hehe...

Then after dinner, I rush back to giv Ying my formal clothes becuz she wan to borrow it...

Then after tat, KC call us to go 83 c tat is a Cafe...

We went there do nothing...just 4 of us... drink n talk...plan for Saturdays activitiy...^^

Becuz they all are goin to Penang to hav interview for Genting Jobs...

So, I plan to meet them at there so tat I can go out to hav fun with them^^v

On Saturday, I wait for their msg.. so tat I can know the time I and KC should go there...

Then, Ying sms me to go there lo...tat is "Queenbay"!!!...but ned to wait for KC to com fetch me...wait so LONG...

On the way,KC n Chen Hooi talk many things bout "A片",bout Japan...=.=lll swt...

When we arrived, they already bought tickets for us, movie is "Land of the Lost"...

I thought it was a nice movie, but came out to be... a "Lung movie"...

Nvm la... at least we all hav a good laught...haha...

Then after fin, they all plan to find Villy lo...at Gurney... so cool... they can drive from Queenbay

to Gurney just for a dinner...>.<>

Wait... b4 tat incident happened, Ying accompany me go buy some things...hehe...

Tat is a bag... for him...^^bcuz his bag already broken for century...

I knw tat we just had argue...but tat CAN'T stop me from buying things for him!

Haha... if I didnt buy, I think I cant sleep le at nite...

I went to the ATM machine there to take out some $$$ so I can buy bag for him...

Tat $$$ is PTPTN lai... T.T But I use it...

Then I also bought another magic cube for him... AGAIN... Am I stupid?

Becuz I heard from him, tat he wan to find this white colour magic cube very long le...

Then I saw it ma buy lo... I am a good girlfren for 24hours right? >.<

We arrived at Gurney and quickly find Villy lo...Cuz she waited us for 1 hour d...

Scared she angry...>.<>

Our dinner is at KIM GARY...WA...tat day really bankrap le la...T.T

Then we take some pics o...^^Hehe...

Tat day was so tired...But happy also...Cuz can hang out with all good frens^^

Thx... my frens...^^Really a happy memorys...

On Sunday,I sleep until 11 nia...

Cuz suddenly wake up becuz of hungry... hehe

Then Ying ask me go to fayu library at 3.30pm...

Then when reach there, I thought I can online play games...but...

My laptop ki siao liao...T.T so sad nia...

Cant on... Actually can on but my screen was dark, nothing com out but I heard sound...

So scare if my laptop spoilt...T.T laptop... my only frens in hostel...

Then I shut down n on many times but same thing happened...

More sad now...Then the last time I wan to on again then... SUCCESS!!!

But something wrong lo... I tried to online search for solution...

Then, I check many times...I knw wat is the problem le... Is the display adapter...=.=lll

Haiz..I tried to update tat driver... then is actually ok already... YEAH....

On Monday, tat is today lo... Im back to Penang again...

Hostel...So sienz again...

But I now waiting for him to com back...

Becuz I wan to giv him tat bag n the cube...^^

I hope to see him smiling at me...>.<

Ahh... So hungry also... Cuz just eat breakfast... Now 5 o'clock le...

Eat biscuits la... Now I buy de biscuits is more delicious le^^