Weekend~

Another week had ended...

Haiz...

Next week onward will hav more and more assignments to handle...

So sienz...

All group assignment lai...

Mahuan...

This time wont be easy like the 1st sem le...

AH~~~

Felt so lazy le...

But nvm la...^^

Cuz later my new house will be full of ppl...

Like "ppl mountain ppl sea"...>.<

Hehe... House party~

Later also can see many many frens gathering together...

Felt so happy when think bout it...

Cuz I like to be with many many frens together to hav fun...

Without him, I still hav frens...

>.<

Erm... Later wan bak Kulim liao...

Wish that tonite will be the greatest nite of this month la...

我爱的人

他做了他 觉得对 的选择

我只好 祝福他 真的对了

爱不到我 最想要 爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人

他心里每一寸 都属于另一个人

他真幸福 幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨 他的爱 怎么那么深

我爱的人 他已有了爱人

从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能

嗨。。。

刚刚听了这首歌。。。就想起了他。。。

难受吗？值得吗？

难受。但是不值得了。

刚刚他不在，就用他的电脑上网。。。

但是，自己还是对他的事有好奇的心。。。

就看看了他的Msn record。。。

真笨。。。看了真无言。。。

想不到他真的那样了。。。很多人都没发觉到他变了。。。

全部朋友说是我想太多。。。他好像。。。 很“作作” 了。。。说骗话就算了。

但是，看到他跟朋友聊msn的话。。。

我真的很想骂他够够的。。。

因为他跟他朋友说他生日时蛋糕都没有。。。

什么吗？！是在怪我吗？ 那天，我真的真的很想跟他庆祝的！

是他一直对着我脸黑黑，不想理我，说什么不用庆祝的。。。

我想那时他应该很失望他的班上朋友没帮他庆祝吧。。。

在他眼里。。。都是朋友。。。

更好笑的是，他还跟他的朋友说什么他只有TARC的朋友，在别位，他就一个人了！

我很讨厌这样的人啊。。。

这么他那样了。。。

我真的很失望。。。

我越来越没办法在面对他了。。。

我已经决定要搬家了。。。

但是我还没跟他说。。。

他也不在乎吧。。。

少了我，他的日子更好过。。。

我现在才真的把我们的事，当作是“过去”。。。

My new HOME~

Haiz...

Becuz of my parents "syiok"...

Im being force to move to Bukit Mertajam...

Tat pic is my room...

Haiz...

Become small = divided by 2

So sad nia...

Here no fren no ppl de...

So sienz also...

AND cant online also...

Dear, frens...

I had move to BM o...

SO, dun GONG GONG go my "new" Kulim house find me o...

But I still got go bak to my grandfather house...sumtimes...

My speaker~

At last I set it up in a fix place...>.<

Now listen to song more syok liao...

And these are the MAGIC CUBE I discovered at Jusco...

SO many types...

But I couldn't finish a type also...

T.T

说骗话很好玩吗？

我现在心情超差的！

真的很讨厌他！

为什么每次都这样？？？？？

真不明白！

刚刚还好好的在车上想起以前开心的回忆。。。

是跟爸爸的车回来槟城。。。

因为他说 “这个星期我没回了，因为要去朋友家讨论功课。”

其实如果他没回，我没回也没关系的。。。

以为回去也是几天而已。。。

不想麻烦妈妈来载我啦。。。

但是他一直赶我回去。。。说什么他不会回来Hostel的。。。

所以我会一个人。。。

我就真的相信了他的话。。。

但是刚刚看到了他的朋友post的照片在Facebook之后。。。

我真的。。。

不是说我在意什么。。。

是因为我觉得，“你有必要骗我吗？”

我很讨厌被骗的感觉！！！

已经被骗了2年！

还不够吗？

为什么这个小小的事罢了也要骗？

我真的受够了！！！

陈志勤！ 我已经不是你的女朋友了！！！

你不可以正常的对待我吗？！

Haiz...

Just argue with him nia...

Bcuz Im kepo...

Really felt regret for giving him advises...

I just felt like dun wan him to fight with others or others to not bo syiok him nia ma...

But... looks like he did not like to hear my advises...

And talk loudly to me...

Im ok ah...

I wont sad bcuz he like tat...

Just felt like he making my mood worst nia...

Why he wan to be like tat...

Cant him try to settle any matter silently or nicely?

He just making himself hate by ppl if he continue like tat...

Nvm la...

I think is non-of-my-business already...

So sad la...

Roommates move out ah...

Now...

They were moving out...

Im alone again...

They just move to the next next next house...

LOL...

Eventhought we didnt so good yet...

But still sad ah...

Cuz Im alone again...

I really hate to be alone...

No mood now...

Copy from Kong Leong~Meaningful~

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two
小心讀每一個，再用一兩秒想一想
1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。
14. Be yourself, don't pretend to be other people so a man/woman will love you. Cause if he/she love who you are, and that what they want you to be.


REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。
True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends?
真正朋友: 有幾多人有八位真正的朋友?
Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!!
我幾乎不認識這些人! 但在我們當中有些人全有對和好的朋友!!!
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Being happy is the priority of living,If u wanna be sad,Be sad 4 something that's worth it.
珍惜你所擁有的，慶幸所曾發生的。
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Today...

Whole day didnt talk to him...

I just felt like dun wan to c his face n dun wan to talk to him...

He also didn talk to me...

So, today I knw the feeling already...

The feeling of LIFE without him...

Today after class, I went to "One Stop" with my classmate...

They goin there to survey bout hardware...

Then, they fetch me back to my hostel...

Reach hostel... felt really boring...

Play facebook awhile only...then I went to bed n slep...

After I wake up, I went out of room to bathroom, I saw him...

He saw me too... and looked at me for a few seconds...

But I just escaped from his eyes...

Then for my dinner, I ate "Gardenia" bread with Tuna...

I also saw him go out after chatting with his fren to decide where to eat...

But I knw ... he wont ask me...

Now, when I go toilet, I saw his laptop disappear...

Mean tat he bring to his fren house to online...

Fren... is his treasure...

I dun wan to be sad...

So, I online find many many website tat sell clothes...

Then I decide to buy sum out-goin shirt or dresses...

Hope I can keep more $$$ to use... haha

For girls, I think shopping really can forget all sad things...

But must hav $$$ lo...

If dun hav... more sad...

Really hope tat one day I can suddenly found sum $ in college or by roadside... >.<

Broken heart more deeper...

Tonite...

My college Chinese Society had organise an event for the Moon Festival...

I really hoping to go...

Its start at 6 to 11pm...

Then I waited until 8 sumthing...

I thought he will wan to go there...

I had ask him for many times...

He just keep saying he duno...

Then I really ask him many times until 9pm...

At last... wat I gain is just sadness...

He say to me tat if I wan go, call fren fetch la...

But... dun he knw tat Im waiting him...???

I just cant stand anymore...

My tears are rushing out...

I went into my room...

Cry quietly...inside my blanket...

Cuz my roommate was surfing net on her table...

I did not wan to scare her or wat...

I really can feel it... my warm tears...

Then I sms him...say tat y dun he tell earlier if he dun wan to go?

His msg totally hurt me very deep...

Means tat is non-of-my-business if he wan go or not...

And he called me to go myself if I wan to go...

At that moment, I just remember tat... Im not his gf...

I really stupid!!!

How can I 4get...

Now...I really getting more n more hate him...

I hate him so much...

As fren also, he treat me like this...

But y... when he treat me good... I feel like I can giv everything to him...

I hate him when is like tis...

Sometimes wan to treat me good, but then hurt me...

WHY my fate would be like tat?

IS me tat should decide my destiny!!!

Now, I feel like... I wont wan to talk with him anymore...

Talk to him like talking to a witch...

Waiting him like waiting rain to come during drought...

Result~~~

Haiz...

Result came out le...

I fail my MATH!!!

So sad la...

Ned to pay college RM80 to resit that paper...

Ned to study tat subject again...

But is ok la...

Cuz my classmate fail 5 subject ah...

Ke lian nia...

Ned to work more harder lo...

Hope everything goes well la...

2moro is a new day~

W.H.Y ?.?.?

Just came back from dinner...

Erm...

He bring me out to eat...

Felt comfortable when he treat me good...

Looks like he wan to pay drink n food tat I order...

But I managed to pay 1st...

I felt paiseh if wan him to pay for me...

I duno why...

I felt happy to talk with him in a happy way...

Mayb his mood is good...

If last time n everyday he also can communicate like this...

Tats will be good...

But I also scare if I will fall in love more deep with him...

He now sometimes treat me good can really make me feel like falling in love in him again...

But happiness always appeared to be in a short time...

When one day tat is happy...the next day is sad...

Then, the feeling of happiness gone...

Y sumtimes he can treat me very good...

But sumtimes can hurt me very deep too...

Is this really called LOVE?

Or in this world there is NO true love...

This morning, wake up straight go vomit le... >.<

Cuz really cant tahan anymore ah...

From yesterday nite cant sleep well...

Mayb is becuz yesterday nite didn eat dinner...then after some hours eat too much...

I hate this kind of feeling...

Vomit is suffering...

Then after I vomit, I saw him...

Erm...

I really hope to be care by him lo...

Hope he will care bout me...

So, I tell him lo...

But...looks like is no longer his responsibility to care bout me anymore...

So...I felt a bit disappointed when I think bout this...

Then, just now I saw in the Facebook, his classmate post some pictures...

Pictures of them enjoying at REDBOX...

On the date tat I didn hav my dinner...

Becuz he go out until midnite back...

He dun wan tell me where he go when I ask him...

I just dun understand...

Im no longer his gf ma...Y he wan to be so secret for???

He likes to act secretly...

Like scare IF I knw something...

Pls la... I just wan to be normal fren...

Y wan to act like...he is betraying me???

He just giv me an uncomfortable feeling only...

So moodless when everytime like this...

Luckily, today Hui Ci came Penang find me...

After my class, she came n bring me out...

Im glad I still hav fren like her...

We went to gurney kia kia n watch movie...

Eventhought she had watch it but she watch the 2nd time with me...

Cuz I really wan to watch movie...

I already very long didnt go out watch movie...when he start to had cool war with me...

Hate it...

Today saw many many couples watching movie...

Miss tat kind of feeling...

But I keep telling myself tat is IMPOSSIBLE anymore...

Just WAKE UP LA!!!

He more like to go out with his one year known fren also will not wan to go out with me!!!

Three years...

Really had been so long...

Y he can let go of me so easily...

But I cant...

Single Life...

My college new sem had started...

The 1st week will be a "honeymoon" week cuz not all lecture will be teaching...

Then, tis sem de timetable is sooooooooooooo not same time with him...

Cant tumpang also his car...

But...I think he also dun wan to fetch me ba...

This two days, I go school also by fren car...

I cant call him...

Actually thought tat today can ask him fetch me de... but I didn knw tat he will be going out so early...

Raining summore... Cant walk too...

I alway ask myself tat if he ever think bout me...

But I should knw ah...

Cuz his movement and his speech show all...

He really didn care bout me anymore...

If he wan go out just go out...

Not like the past time...he will tell me...

He looks so... "FREEDOM"

Im still not so good in handling this kind of situation...

Just now he wan to went out, so I ask him for several times...

I think actually he didnt wan to tell me...

But...I really so...annoying...

Just break...wat did I hope for...

Is better than before...

Now we can talk like fren... Real fren communication...

But many thing still "hurt"...

How I can really take out him from my heart and throw away.....?

1/10/2009

那晚12.03，他跟我说清楚了。。。

他说做回朋友会比较好。。。

我看到信息后，有点难过。。。也有点高兴，因为他终于能说出来了。。。

等了真的很久很久。。。

但是他到最后都没说他还有喜欢还是不喜欢我。。。

我不想问了。。。

再问下去可能朋友都没办法做。。。

喜欢还是不喜欢，我们已经不会有未来了。。。

过了几分钟之后，我真的开始难过了。。。

心里面一直在问，真的完了吗？？？

笨蛋的我还看手机里面的照片。。。

看回我们以前一起拍过的照片。。。

看一眼而已，就受不了了。。。

很伤心的在想。。。我不想做回朋友。。。

我是后悔了吗？

但是这些事情是没办法的。。。

两个人如果要在一起，是要两个人都一样的爱着对方。。。

可能这是命中注定的。。。

我和他不会再有结果了。。。

我不会后悔跟他在一起过。。。

很想跟他说“谢谢你曾经爱过我”。

现在只能忘掉以前，好好的为未来打算吧。。。

希望自己不会是弱者。。。

Feeling

最近的心情。。。好像天气一样。。。

要热就热。。。要下雨就下雨。。。

都搞不懂自己呀。。。

好像有很多事要烦，又好像很无聊乱想的。。。

初恋啊。。。

爱可以让人很幸福，爱也可以让人很辛苦。。。

本来以为是第一个，也是最后一个的。。。

但是还是那句话，勉强没有幸福。。。

很多戏里面说的话都是对的。。。

留到他的人，但留不到他的心，是没用的。。。

那我就更惨。。。

留不到他的心，也留不到他的人。。。

什么都没有了。。。

有些朋友一定会说我失去了一个好的男生。。。

好的又怎样？？？

他不要对我好能怎样哦。。。

不管怎样好的。。。都不属于自己了。。。

“不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有 ”

说真的，我不是很喜欢这句话。。。

因为，我在乎天长地久。。。