Skip class again...

Yesterday nite cry until 5 am...

Therefore this morning class cant wake up on time...

He also didn call me to wake up or ask if I wan to go to class...

Just... so disappointed on him...

Now... my eyes are very pain...

Red red de...

Because of him, I cant sleep well...

Because of him, I might get Warning Letter form college...

Because of him, I not in good mood...

Later I will be goin bak with my mother...

Because he will stay here to do his assignment...

Not stay, is go to his fren house overnite...

Then,just now I call my mother, thought tat wan call her com earlier fetch me...

But... I wan to see him for the last time b4 I go back...

Actually, I had already... forgiv him...

But... I still cant talk to him ...becuz... I duno wat I wan to say anymore...

Im speechless le...to him...

So, I did not call my mother to early come...

Now... Im hungry...Later just eat mee cup ba...

I should not depend on him so much...

Becuz at last...what I get is just Sad Feeling...

I think I should really leave him alone for a while...

He say to me in sms yesterday nite tat "Can u leave me alone"...This words really cut my heart into two pieces...

Just like last year...same month same time...

He just like now... Treat me in a cool way...

Then after we break for a few month... He is ok bak...

Therefore... I will let him to cool down himself...for some time...

See until when I can stand lo...

But NOT Breaking with him...

Just...Let him get freedom...

I will start to not care bout his matter anymore...

If I can...I will work hard for tat...

我已经。。。

我已经。。。没办法了。。。

我好难过。。。真的好难过。。。

你已经对我到这个地步了。。。

我讨厌你。。。

真的恨死你。。。。

是你让我那么痛苦的。。。

因为太爱你。。。所以伤的最深的人是我。。。

你到底知不知道如果你这样继续的不理我的感受。。。最后的结果会是怎样吗？

我们又会再“分手”！！！！！

你以为我很想吗？

跟你好回到现在都没想过这两个字。。。

但是。。。为什么你都不珍惜我们现在拥有的。。。

为什么不珍惜我。。。

我已经很努力了。。。

很努力的不跟你吵架。。。很努力的让你。。。很努力的让你开心。。。很努力的对你好。。。

我以为只要我好好的珍惜你，爱你，你就回像回以前那样。。。

但是。。。

全部都变了。。。

你不在是以前的你。。。

以前真的很爱过我的你。。。

现在你变了。。。我也能接受。。。但是为什么？

为什么你要给我很多很多的“为什么”？？？

我不明白。。。

为什么你都不跟我说出你心里的话？

现在的我。。。不了解你的心在想什么？？？

我也搞不清楚。。。

我是你的谁？女朋友？还是比普通朋友还要的更普通？

我真的很想求你。。。

如果，你对我真的已经没有一点感觉的话。。。

请你。。。放开我。。。

Normal Day...

Today nothing special...

Warm day... No rain...^^

Also no argue... Hehe...

I buy again a magic cube for him...hehe...

But he duno how to do so become like this...=.=lll

Actually is a CUBE!!!

Cuz now he duno how to put them back...>.<

Hehe... Just now helped my fren,Ying edit her photo... Wakaka...

So Kawaii nia...

>.<

Now...So busy...

Haha...Duno busy wat also... MSN chat non-stop with my frens...

-Ying find me ask to borrow formal clothes~~~>.<

-Then Villy reply me tat the movie she watch "我的帅管家" is very nice...

-Then ask Chee Wei teach me how to change blog template... hehe...

-Then ask him teach me how to download "One Piece" summore...

THEN my laptop become very LAG~~~

I realise tat...

Im Blogging~ Im MSN-ing~ Im Hacking~ Im Playin Facebook~

Im Reading Forum~

LOL!

So many things...Now close sum liao la...

Cuz my fren all go oi oi le...

Today's Happy Memory~~~

Recently...my college's societies organise many activity...

Singing competition just end,now come the Prom Nite...

Then this whole week, foyer will be full of ppl...

Go class also will caught in traffic jam de...

Then now the Chinese Society organise "Chinese Valentine Day"...

Lol...

So many dolls and flowers they were selling at foyer...=.=

Then I receive a"SHIT" from Kong Leong... Haha...

This la..."SHIT"....

Cute right?

Haiz...

My bf didnt buy anything for me also.

..

But I buy sumting for him.^^

This lo... Cuz he likes playing this magic cube...

The small 1 is a key chain but can play n rotate also de...

^^

When I giv him... I saw his smile... So long didn see le...

Therefore, Im so happy to buy thing for him...

Hehe...

If he buy sumting for me, I think I will happy till crazy lo...

But I know he wont...

Becuz he think is a waste of money de...

Haiz...

Nvm la...

As long as I can see he happy...

Just now... after argue with him... he go to his fren house to do assignment...

Then I ma playin laptop lo...

Then suddenly he came back...

He came back to take his fail...Then he also bought 2 breads for me...

A bit happy lo...Cuz he still care bout me...

Haiz...

Hope tat 2moro is a BETTER DAY...

And just remember back... Tat piggy chun kit...=.=lll

Send giv me tis pic and I just saw his BLOG!!!!!

"when i saw those pig...i saw helen...then yeesing continue my word...when i eat the pig...i eat helen...wakaka...then siao ying say...although helen r not here...but the pig can substitute her...see...when we saw a pig...we were thinking of u...hahaha... "

walao le... Wat a Good Frenz...=.=lll

Sorry...

Im alone again...in this big hostel...

Evey1 go out...including him...

He go to his classmate house to do assignment...

Just now... he fetch me go da bao food...

Then...becuz he park at a far way tat is near to his food stall,i started to say him...

Why would he be so selfish...

Becuz I am the only 1 will goin down to buy, not him...

So, I angry...

Then I saw him also not good in mood le...

He then park at nearer to my food stall selection place...

Then say, no ned to buy for him le...

Why he is so small gas...

I really hate like tis...

This felling torture me...

Im started really not in good mood...then I saw tat stall already close...

Then I think I dun wan eat anymore...

Go up to car...and tell him...

He was very angry...

He say he bring me here but didn wan to buy anything?!!!

I really very scare him...

His face...so angry...

Then I just say sorry to him...

But he...looked very... angry...

Then he fetch me back to the hostel...

On the way, he did not talk to me...

I felt very sad...Today suppose to be a happy day...

Cuz we were not argue today...

But...Now I felt very regret... I should control my emotion...

I should buy some food...

But now is too late... he already angry me...

I send a msg to say sorry again...but I know... he wont forgive me so easily...

Now...

I really very sad...I am too afraid to lost him...

Im Back~~~

Haiz... Im back again in tis cool castle...

Without prince...

The day start again...

So boring again...

Today is my fren's birthday, Soek Yen...

But I cant join them... T.T

I wish that I can join them lo...

Cuz many ppl will be more happy ma...

Better than Im alone at hostel la...

Haiz...

But the date was not suitable...

Now I already at penang lo...

Haiz... So boring duno wan do wat la... Sienz...

Yen, take my soul to ur celebration la...

Take tis as my gift to u la...hehe....

Also giv u a cute cake la... Can see cant eat de cake... Very precious right?^^

So Boring ah...

Today I didnt go to school ah...

Morning overslept...Then evening lazy go le...

If go must walk go then after 1 hour walk back meh...

Haiz...

Now very boring ah...

Duno wan do wat la...

Play facebook also play sienz le...

Then when at night, more boring lo...

Becuz tonite there will be singing competition at my college...

I wan to go...but... no ppl accompany me...

All my frens are doin their work at there...

Becuz they are commitee lo...

Then I ask him go... he say dun wan...

Then I thought tat if he dun wan, then I can ask him go watch movie...

Then he say assignment again...

I duno if he lie me or not...

Becuz he use tis excuse many times le...

We already delay to go watch movie for three week le...

He alway say he is busy...

"Ice Age" ah... I think I cant watch "u" le...

Wait for DVD le lo...

Then next week... he hav more excuse...

Becuz he join the ...some kind like PBSM de la...

Then next week, they held a blood donation activity ah...

He will on duty for 3days lo...

Then...Haiz...

Now my life like>>> No Movie le...T.T

So Sienz...

I wish tat he can keep sum time to accompany me lo...

Becuz nowadays...Im Alone...

Share Pic... Hehe...

My pet society de living room...^^v

This is the room...^^v >>>>>Princess's accessories...

朋友的生日。。。

刚刚，班长突然打了电话给我。。。

吓到下。。。

因为他不会打给的我嘛。。。

然后叫我去学校的CA（就是我们学校的Hall）。

嗨。。。

都几点了。。。快要10点了叻。。。

学校应该很恐怖吧。。。>.<

然后说要帮Kayne庆祝生日啊。。。

那时的我很乖在做功课叻。。。

他也不在家。。。

所以就去看看下咯。。。叫朋友来载。。。

去到那边。。。原来他们还没叫kayne的。。然后说要骗他过来。。。

哈哈~~~

那时，他们说要骗他说另一个朋友Fall Down From Ladder。。。

因为酱迟了， 他们还在学校decorate stage 啊。。。这个星期四要用到的，“歌唱比赛”。

然后我也帮忙想了idea要怎样骗他。。。呵呵。。。

班长就先打电话去骗他。。。

我们其他的就hide在stage后面。。。拿着蛋糕。

另一个就躺在Stage，好像不能动了酱。。。

来了~~~

也太快了吧。。。应该太紧张了啦。。。担心朋友吧。。哈哈。。。

Kayne就问了那个朋友很多很多的问题。。。然后还想带他去医院呢。。。

呵呵。。

我们就出现了！

“Happy Birthday to you.... Happy Birthday to you...."

哈哈。。。

看到我们又吓倒多一次。。。

我好像看到他流泪叻。。。>.<

可能看错吧。。。

然后就吃蛋糕咯。。。

那时他们Continue 做他们的事咯。。。

我也没事好留在那边了。。。

就sms他咯。。。

但是。。。

又让我失望的是。。。

他不想载我。。。

如果现在是下午的话，我也不会求他啦。。。我一定走路回。。

但是是晚上啊。。。

说了很久，他才愿意来载我。。。

上车了，他又脸黑黑的。。。

我也不敢跟他说话。。。

只能静静的。。。

回到来后。。。才知道。。原来他在忙着看戏。。。

。。。

不知道该说什么好了。。。

先冷静下吧。。。

Come See My New Restaurant >.<

Hehe...

Nice ma?

Do very long lo...

Haha...

So happy when finish it...

But all my $$$ Gone... T.T

Nvm la...

Im happy is enough ~~~ >_<

Ok la...

Its time to "Oi Oi" lo...

So late le...

Abo 2moro cant wake up...

Good Nitez...

Zzzz.....

好热啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

哇老。。。

今天的天气这么那么热。。。

今天又是走路回啦。。。

走到半路，就去买“包包”带回家吃咯。。。

整天都没吃到东西。。。好像在等死那样。。。

也买了杯面。。。可以当作今晚的晚餐吧。。。

如果他不理我的话。。。backup嘛。。。

到了家，我的汗好像下雨那样的。。。=.=lll

第一次叻！！！我都很少流汗的。。。

但是。。。今天。。。我终于知道了。。。

原来。。。他是不喜欢载我的。。。

我对他来说是一个很麻烦的东西。。。

我在班上收到他的信息后。。。

就很难过。。。

今天老师教的Looping，我完全听不进。。。

脑里面不停的在想。。。

我的脑。。。出现了很多很多的“ 为什么？”。。。

我有好多东西都不明白。。。

但是。。。都找不到答案。。。

其实。。。我走路是没关系的。。。

当作。。减肥咯。。。

但是想到我的脸又会变黑就参了。。。

我的“Tapak kaki”也开始脱皮啊。。。

应该是我太弱了吧。。。

平时都是有人载。。。不管去哪里都好。。。

现在。。。我不能再依赖别人了。。。我也不想依赖别人。。。

不是别人的人不理我啊。。。

也不在乎我。。。

所以。。。

我的减肥proses要开始咯。。。

爱我。。。真的很难吗？

我想知道。。。

爱我。。。是辛苦的吗？

爱我。。。是痛苦的吗？

爱我。。。真的很麻烦吗？

为什么没有人能好好的爱我。。。

为什么没有人能好好的珍惜我。。。

为什么美好的事情过的那么快。。。

我好希望。。。我能把以前开心和幸福的事，忘得干干净净。。。

因为。。。想起了是开心到哭的。。。

现在。。。都很少会像以前那样快乐了。。。

现在的我。。。

只是一个人孤单的。。。

一个人好寂寞。。。

好羡慕那些好甜蜜的情侣哦。。。

真的。。。好羡慕。。。

我现在是很伤心的。。。

但是。。。我哭不出来了。。。

Yesterday went to cut hair ^^

Yesterday, my mom bla bla at me very long.

She call me go cut hair...

Haha...

Cuz my hair already bout half year didnt cut le..

Cuz I love my long hair.. >.<

Then ma go cut lo..

I just ask tat person tat incharge to cut my hair cut short a bit only...bout 2cm...hehe...

Ah... I went to MAX STYLE la..

Hehe...

Cuz there many handsome guys ma...

Can choose wan who cut for us...

Then tat person tat cut mine is ok la...

Eventhough he looks not so SUPRISING but is ok la.. ^^

He looks mature...

Erm...

I wonder if I hav a chance to hav tis kind of boyfren ma...

Haha..

Cuz I just hav 1Boyfren that from the day I KNOW wat is Love only...

He does not look mature lo...

But I like him becuz he giv me a very happy feeling...

For me... he looks cute...babyface... >.<

But...

Nowadays...I dun think he is cute already...

Cuz...

Haiz...

Lazy say...

Let me show photo la... >.<

Tat ppl ah... do curly for me summore...

Actually my hair like didnt cut also... >.<

Tis pic is taken after we went to the Bon-Odori close ceremony... =.=lll

When we reach there... all fin...

T.T

Nvm lo... Next year ka go again...tis time will Not miss it!!!

Goin Back Later...

Haiz...

Later go back hometown lo...

Go back there duno wan do wat la...

So sienz...

At own house dun hav internet...

Means that...

NO SDO~~~NO FACEBOOK~~~NO MAPLE~~~NO BLOG~~~

NO ONLINE ACTIVITY~~~ T.T

So sad la...

Actually I thought that I can go to the "Bon Odori"de...

1year 1time nia le...

But...

No choice ah...

He dun wan stay here...

So am I...

Becuz if he is not here... Im alone...

Then...

NO FOOD~~~

Haiz...

Really wish to go there lo...

Didn go b4 ah...

I wan see ppl with cute cute costume...

T.T Sad~~~

Any1 goin pls take me go~~~

。。。

今天，放学走路回来。。。

因为。。。我打了很多次电话给他。。。

但是他没听。。。

真的打了很多次。。。

今天太阳好像变得很大。。。

路也好像变得很长。。。

又是一个人走回。。。

要到门口时。。。他就回我的信心说。。。

他刚刚看到我的信息。。。但是他要去Sport了。。。

就是学校。。。

我也看到他刚刚在上车。。。

他的信息真的让我好难过。。。

其实还有时间他可以来载我的。。。

但是。。。

我进了房间就觉得。。。

好想哭。。。

不知不觉就哭了半个小时。。。

不知道在哭什么。。。

我只是知道我好难受。。。

我不是生气他没来载我。。。

我是难过因为我知道。。。

他已经开始不在乎我了。。。

他已经开始变自私了。。。

我现在真的。。。

不知道。。。

我在等什么。。。

现在已经开始像回以前了。。。

像回以前我们刚要分手的那段时间。。。

我好怕。。。

我不想像回以前那样。。。

那段时间真的好痛苦。。。

You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

Before readers wish to read the below lyrics, 1st go to My Frenz there, then right click at Hishiko>Open link in new tab...Then u can listen to this song n see the lyrics ^^v

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

All alone
Why, oh

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Then something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
And you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

Sad Day...

Today is another sad day...

He scold me...

Becuz he had waited me for 30 min...

Then he angry...

Before this, I also had waited him for hours la...

But I didn angry...

Now I also still waiting for him la...

Already waited for more than one year...

But he still cant say those words I wish to hear...

Becuz his FRENS want to com to our hostel take bak sum things...

I really upset...

Is tat really a important matter to HIM?

Really so sad...

Now..

I duno wat should I hope for...

Really no mood...

I HATE Him !!!!!

Hate him...

Y he always been so selfish...

Now...

In his heart...

1.Frens

2.Family

3.Mayb is me or mayb NOT...

Today, his frens all com to our hostel to borrow a kicthen for sum cooking...

Becuz they are goin to Paradise at nite for a fren birthday party...

I didn say I didn giv he to go there...

Just tat WHY ???

I dun understand...

He didn care bout me...

DIdn ask also how am I goin to eat my dinner or how...

He just looks very excited to go there...

Looks so happy...

Laugh so happy...

But he didn think bout my feeling...

Then... he just go away just like tat...

When he step out of the house, my tears start to drop...

But I tried to stop...

Cuz I Know is no use...

I just need him to ask me... and care me...

Just like tat...

BUT... WHY cant he do tat...

Looks like is so hard for him to talk to me...

Haiz...

Just now, his fren(Girl) is such a BITCH...

I hate her...

She just call him in a cute way as Im not there...

Is kanasia Hiao...

But...

No use ah..

He dun mind... Cuz he cant see me also...

Even if I at in front of him...

In front of his eyes... is just his Frens...

And Im a part of the wall too...

WHY AM I ALWAYS BE A PART OF THE WALL???

I hate to be lonely...

He just left me like tat...

Alone in tat creepy hostel...

Facebook~~~ ^^v

Lately, i hav been playing facebook...

Is walao... so many application in facebook..=.=

Now i alway playing facebook nia lo...

I didn on Maple very long lo...

Start to miss my Gunslinger tat had reach lvl55... haha...

I will play when I settle all my facebook games 1st...

hehe...

Now im lvl-ing up my Restaurant City and Pet Society application...

hehe...

Is very Cute.. >.<

Is True...

Let me show ~~~

This is >>Pet Society<<...

My pet... name Pinky Princess ^^

This is >>Restaurant City<<...

I hav 5 workers now...cuz lvl still low... cant hire many ppl... T.T

I also hav play tat Typing Mania...

but cant win my frenz all...

cuz they all are aliens...

typing so FAST...

But I will kampate de ^^

To become better than before...

And to learn to live more colourful...

Im going to crazy...

I wan ki siao le la....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why everytime like tis de...

Why cant one day is normal....

Very stress la...

Tis week got so many exam....

Really very sad n no mood...

But...

Why again....

He treat me like tis wor...

I just need sumone to talk with...

He just ignored me like im a part of the wall...

Already not the 1st time...

I really very no mood...

Wan angry or wan sad...

I DUNO!!!!!

I just know i need sumone to accompany me...

Talk with me...

I need him...

But I just like a wall to him...

He ignored me...

Like he always do...

Is so fun to ignored me...

I felt tat I really just more ordinary than ordinary...

I cant say anymore bout my feeling...

I cant describe it...

Is such a painful feeling...

I just hope for "1" happy day to go through...

Without stress...

Without angry...

Without sad...

All tis bad feeling...

Just go away...

If can...